dysfunktion-junktion asked: People need to back the fuck off you. You have a disorder? Unfollow. McDonalds doesn't make you fat, your diet does. Simple.

Thank you.

I am going to start using a private blog again.

The pictures that I reblog and the things that I say in here are damaging to other people and I don’t want to do that.

I come here, to vent. To say things I don’t want to directly tell or admit, to “mind vomit” as I’ve put it in the past. I don’t come here for attention, I don’t post links to my tumblr, I don’t ask anyone to follow me anymore because I know that there aren’t any pictures of happy girls in California or cute animals all over my blog. I post pictures that I relate to or identify in some way, pictures that I find interesting. Pictures that are meaningful to me in some way, and pictures that are for me. Same with the entries… so if all of this is true, it shouldn’t matter if I have a private journal or not, since at the end of the day its all for me anyway.

I won’t be posting in here for a while, if ever again. The anon posts are just as destructive to me, if not worse, as my reblogging of thin women, and they aren’t helping in the slightest, regardless of the good intentions. I am worse than I’ve ever been right now.

Anyone who knows me in real life already has my contact information.

So..yerp.

thedeadgypsygirl asked: I LOVE YOU, but i'm sort of going to have to agree here- you're very pro-sickness. your blog is a pretty toxic place for someone in recovery. But my hope is that eventually you'll come to terms with that on your own, because nobody can save you from this but yourself.

I’m just going to start using a private blog again.

Anonymous asked: see you look healthy without sucking in. which is something if you really wanted to be well (like you swear you do) is the goal. but i have a feeling that isn't your goal.

I never said it was.

moblinman asked: Fuck the haters, Chris. I know saying this makes me the biggest hypocrite ever, but you should just focus on doing you, and ignoring what anyone else thinks :3

Thank you. I don’t think they realize that by saying something regarding my weight out of “caring about me” they’re actually just making it worse…. the best thing to do is let me rant on MY BLOG and either not follow me or tell me directly (not anon) …. or just not say anything at all. I don’t want attention, I come here to mind vomit not to cry for pity, and if I have to then I’ll just delete the whole thing and make another private one, but when I had a private one people would beg me to follow them, and the private one was a loooot worse than this is, so I guess there’s no winning with people. /endrant

Anonymous asked: "it seems like you want attention for your weight .... we get it, you are not doing well. but what is sad is you almost look up to girls who are sicker than you..." I agree and I'm glad someone else said it... anonymously

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Anonymous asked: are you planning to go see 'the beatles: the lost concert' film?

I didn’t know it was coming out !

Anonymous asked: it seems like you want attention for your weight. by posting things about it everywhere, here, facebook etc.. and telling everyone how hard it is for you. I know that is how i was before i got really sick, i wanted everyone to notice how thin i was and care about me. and well, i care about you. so you don't need to suck in and stick out your collarbones in every picture. we get it, you are not doing well. but what is sad is you almost look up to girls who are sicker than you...

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my-ephemeral-creed asked: hello, dear. I'm just dropping by to say a few things. 1. you are beautiful in every single way. 2. I miss the hell out of you. 3. This anon person appears to be a dick, and you should ignore their ugly grey face. and 4. If you were "clingy" with me, I would probably be the happiest person in the world. End of things. Love you dearly.

1. I LOVE YOU 2. I LOVE YOU. 3. I LOVE YOU. 4. I LOVE YOU. the end.

<3333333333 you are amazing and I miss you.